GRRRR

I realized that I have not posted FOREVER, so I thought why not do it today :)

My most recent scans were done on Oct 18th and I met with Dr Grossman on Oct 22nd.

I do not have any new tumors, but the ones that I do have are still growing, not a lot, but enough that they want me to participate in a trial study of a cancer drug.

The trial is fairly new to the Huntsman Cancer Institute-it has only been available here for 4 months. Previously I would have had to fly to San Francisco every two weeks.
The study is only open to about 345 patients in the US, and 10 of them are from the Huntsman Cancer Institute- I am number 8.

This trial is delivered via IV therapy, and will not make me sick, and I should be able to work through the trial.

I won't know if I will actually receive the trial drug or the alternative treatment until my biopsy results are received and my blood work comes back.

I will keep you posted.....

Are we there yet?

Hi Everyone,
    So now you all know why I don't have a "family" blog-I apologize for not updating this blog more often, things have been a little crazy the last little while.

     I finished radiation therapy on February 11th and feel good, the only side effects that I got from radiation was being really tired, and the rough/itchy skin where the treatments actually happened.
     The tumor in my armpit (I know it sounds sexy!) changes everyday it seems...sometimes I think it gets smaller, and other days it feels bigger. I occasionally get a little twinge of pain- but in my mind I am saying "die, die, die!"   I have one more treatment of IPI scheduled for March 12th and then I have to wait a couple weeks for CT scans and MRI to see if the treatment is doing anything.

     The worst part of IPI has been the IV's. I think my veins have anxiety. Everytime I think about the process, it makes my veins shrink and hide. When I get to HCI I have to go to the lab for blood work and to get the IV inserted. If you were to walk in and see me sitting there holding hands with purple surgical gloves, filled with hot water and my arms wrapped in warm towels...you would probably wonder what kind of weird dating show you had just  walked in on. :)  But we found that this is the best way to get my veins to relax and avoid being poked 8 times. The whole process takes about 30-45 minutes, then it is off to see the Dr to make sure my levels are good enough to handle the IPI treament.

The only side effect from IPI has been the rash, but it doesn't itch and compared to the itchy skin I had with IL2..this is NOTHING.

My hair is growing back...slowly, but it is starting to grey. But I know I shouldn't complain because it could be so different.

Thank you to all my friends, family and neighbors for treating me like I am normal, and that I am not a piece of China- that will break if you say the word Cancer. I can't lie, there are days that I have my own little pitty-party, but then I pick myself up and deal with it. I refuse to give in to the sadness and the "what-if's"-because they will consume you if you let them-and sadness is not good for the immune system.
                         JUST KEEP SWIMMING....JUST KEEP SWIMMING!
                                                       XOXO

Just keep swimming...

Wow...time flies.

I realized today that I haven't updated this post FOREVER, so I thought I would keep you all updated.

I started radiation this week,(2 treatments) and it takes longer to change clothes and get set up for the treatment than the treatment itself takes. LOL I also had my second dose of "IPI". The only side effects that I have noticed is that my hair is turning gray-we are talking SKUNK STRIPE PEOPLE! and I have been a little more tired and awnry than usual.

When I spoke to Dr Grossman about my hair...he was excited. I was like "REALLY? Easy for you to say!" He explained that it was a good thing because your skin and your hair are "kinda the same thing" that it meant that something was working. Needless to say that is something that I couldn't deal with...so I washed the gray right outta my hair! I guess I should feel lucky that I was able to make it 38yrs without having to deal with the "Gardner Gene".

This last IPI treatment went well...it only took one time to find a vein, so hopefully it will continue to go smoothly.

Still taking Biotin to help with the hair re-growth. It seems to be helping the amount of hair that I am losing. This side effect is probably the hardest to go through. I know it is "just hair", and it will grow back-but it is still emotional for me. Going thick to thin, long to short, and curly to straight, natural red head to not so natural red-head all in a matter of weeks was tough. But this too shall pass.

 Wherefore, be of good ^acheer, and do not ^bfear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you ....D&C 68:6

Thank you to everyone for your kind words of encouragement and comments.
"Just keep swimming...Just keep swimming"

Be Aggressive...........

When I met with Dr Anker to discuss the option of having radiation therapy on one of the tumors, I heard the cheeleading cheer come in my head "Be Aggressive...Be Be..Aggresive. :) I have decided to fight this crap head on and attack it while I am still healthy.
I started the "IPI" (ipilimumab) treatment today. It took 2 nurses, and a PICC line team 8 times to finally get the IV started. I WAS a pin cushion today.

Once the IV was in the infusion was given to me for 90 minutes, and then they observed me for an hour to make sure that I would not have any side effects.

IPI is supposed to help shrink the cancer tumors and with the combination of radiation therapy it can even show NED (no evidence of disease) or remission, It is not chemotherapy, but more of a immunotherapy drug, to try to get my immune system to fight the cancer.

The schedule is radiation 5 times over a 2 1/2 week period. And 1 IPI treatment 1 a week every three weeks over a 12 week period (so four doses).

Dr Grossman told me that based on the side effects that I had with IL2....this will be a kitten.

I spoke to a new therapist "Gabby" today and she was AWESOME. I wish she could come talk to my Relief Society Sisters. She talked all about how feelings come from thoughts and if you feel sad, angry etc you need to re-think your thoughts and get distracted. She said that she has a sculpture of hands making a bowl shape...and she reffered to them as God's Hands. And when she has things on her mind that she knows she can't control, she writes them on a small piece of paper and "puts them in God's Hands"  Instead of asking "Why Me?" she asks "Why Not Me?"  "It would be okay for my neighbor or sister to have cancer, but not me?"
She is also a cancer survivor and said that "you can't control the cancer, but you can decide if you are going to fight it. When you are faced with a decision in life you usually always have to choose between two things you want or two things you don't want. Your choices might be do I want cancer or do I want Chemo." NEITHER....but those are your options.

She talked about that "all this is temporary and only God knows the big picture" and that we just need to focus on the quality of life and not the quantity of life. Because everyone can die in 10 months.

She helped me a ton to get through today.